baro-kṛpā kaile kṛṣṇa
adhamer prati
ki lāgiyānile hethā koro ebe gati
My dear Lord Kṛṣṇa,
You are so kind upon this useless soul, but I do not know why
You have brought me here. Now You can do whatever You like with
me.
āche kichu kārja
taba ei anumāne
nahe keno āniben ei ugra-sthāne
But I guess You have
some business here, otherwise why would You bring me to this
terrible place?
rajas tamo guṇe
erā sabāi ācchanna
bāsudeb-kathā ruci nahe se prasanna
Most of the population
here is covered by the material modes of ignorance and passion.
Absorbed in material life, they think themselves very happy
and satisfied, and therefore they have no taste for the transcendental
message of Vāsudeva. I do not know how they will be able
to understand it.
tabe jadi taba kṛpā
hoy ahaitukī
sakal-i sambhava hoy tumi se kautukī
But I know Your causeless
mercy can make everything possible because You are the most
expert mystic.
ki bhāve bujhāle
tārā bujhe sei rasa
eta kṛpā koro prabhu kori nija-baśa
How will they understand
the mellows of devotional service? O Lord, I am simply praying
for Your mercy so that I will be able to convince them about
Your message.
tomāra icchāya
saba hoy māyā-baśa
tomāra icchāya nāśa māyār paraśa
All living entities
have become under the control of the illusory energy by Your
will, and therefore, if You like, by Your will they can also
be released from the clutches of illusion.
taba icchā hoy
jadi tādera uddhār
bujhibe niścai tabe kathā se tomār
I wish that You may
deliver them. Therefore if You so desire their deliverance,
then only will they be able to understand Your message.
bhāgavater kathā
se taba avatār
dhīra haiyā śune jadi kāne bār bār
The words of Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam
are Your incarnation, and if a sober person repeatedly receives
it with submissive aural reception, then he will be able to
understand Your message.
It is said in the Srīmad-Bhāgavatam
(1.2.17-21):
śrnvatāṁ
sva-kathāḥ kṛṣṇaḥ / punya-śravaṇa-kīrtanaḥ
hṛdy antaḥ-stho hy abhadrāṇi / vidhunoti
suhṛt satām
naṣṭa-prāyeṣv
abhadreṣu / nityaṁ bhāgavata-sevayā
bhagavaty uttama-śloke / bhaktir bhavati naiṣṭhikī
tadā rajas-tamo-bhāvāḥ
/ kāma-lobhādayaś ca ye
ceta etair anāviddhaṁ / sthitaṁ sattve prasīdati
evaṁ prasanna-manaso
/ bhagavad-bhakti-yogataḥ
bhagavat-tattva-vijñānaṁ / mukta-saṅgasya
jāyate
bhidyate hṛdaya-granthiś
/ chidyante sarva-saṁśayāḥ
kṣīyante cāsya karmāṇi / dṛṣṭa
evātmanīśvare
"Śrī
Kṛṣṇa, the Personality of Godhead, who is
the Paramātmā [Supersoul] in everyone's heart and
the benefactor of the truthful devotee, cleanses desire for
material enjoyment from the heart of the devotee who has developed
the urge to hear His messages, which are in themselves virtuous
when properly heard and chanted. By regular attendance in classes
on the Bhāgavatam and by rendering of service to
the pure devotee, all that is troublesome to the heart is almost
completely destroyed, and loving service unto the Personality
of Godhead, who is praised with transcendental songs, is established
as an irrevocable fact.
As soon as irrevocable loving service is established in the
heart, the effects of nature's modes of passion and ignorance,
such as lust, desire and hankering, disappear from the heart.
Then the devotee is established in goodness, and he becomes
completely happy. Thus established in the mode of unalloyed
goodness, the man whose mind has been enlivened by contact with
devotional service to the Lord gains positive scientific knowledge
of the Personality of Godhead in the stage of liberation from
all material association. Thus the knot in the heart is pierced,
and all misgivings are cut to pieces. The chain of fruitive
actions is terminated when one sees the self as master."
rajas tamo hate tabe
pāibe nistār
hṛdayer abhadra sate ghucibe tāhār
He will become liberated
from the influence of the modes of ignorance and passion and
thus all inauspicious things accumulated in the core of the
heart will disappear.
ki ko're bujhābo
kathā baro sei cāhi
khudra āmi dīna hīna kono śakti nāhi
How will I make them
understand this message of Kṛṣṇa consciousness?
I am very unfortunate, unqualified and the most fallen. Therefore
I am seeking Your benediction so that I can convince them, for
I am powerless to do so on my own.
athaca enecho prabhu
kathā bolibāre
je tomār icchā prabhu koro ei bāre
Somehow or other, O
Lord, You have brought me here to speak about You. Now, my Lord,
it is up to You to make me a success or failure as You like.
akhila jagat-guru!
bacana se āmār
alaṅkṛta koribār khamatā tomār
O spiritual master
of all the worlds! I can simply repeat Your message, so if You
like You can make my power of speaking suitable for their understanding.
taba kṛpā
ha'le mor kathā śuddha habe
śuniyā sabāra śoka duḥkha je ghucibe
Only by Your causeless
mercy will my words become pure. I am sure that when this transcendental
message penetrates their hearts they will certainly feel engladdened
and thus become liberated from all unhappy conditions of life.
āniyācho
jadi prabhu āmāre nācāte
nācāo nācāo prabhu nācāo se-mate
kāṣṭhera puttali jathā nācāo
se-mate
O Lord, I am just like
a puppet in Your hands. So if You have brought me here to dance,
then make me dance, make me dance, O Lord, make me dance as
You like.
bhakti nāi beda
nāi nāme khub daro
"bhaktivedānta" nām ebe sārthak kor
I have no devotion,
nor do I have any knowledge, but I have strong faith in the
holy name of Kṛṣṇa. I have been designated
as Bhaktivedānta, and now, if You like, You can fulfill
the real purport of Bhaktivedānta.
Signed-the most unfortunate,
insignificant beggar
A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami,
on board the ship Jaladuta, Commonwealth Pier,
Boston, Massachusetts, U.S.A.
dated 18th of September, 1965
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